Sunday, April 1, 2007

Bike wreck changes my focus

I wrecked my bicycle today; head on collision with another cyclist. We were on the bike path, heading towards each other in the same lane, closing in on the center of a big dip in the trail. I was on my right, he was on his left. I yelled at him, thinking he'd make the simple adjustment. It wasn't till we were very close that I realized he was holding his line. So I made a last second maneuver to my left that would have barely cleared him, only to be blocked by his jack-knifing bike. Rank amateur. And me too, for not braking harder earlier. I broke both my shoulder blades. The doctor said he'd never seen that before. I guess I rolled on my back. I also broke a rib, a bone in my hand, and got some really cool handlebar shaped bruises.  

While I was going through the whole emergency room BS, I realized something. It really sucks to be totally isolated sometimes. So I went over the reasons I'm in that predicament. A long time ago I had some goals that seemed important. And I would have met those goals, except when I got close, I set higher goals. I've been doing that for years now, pushing myself to extremes in ways that I won't get into here. The point is that I'm living far from my home and friends to achieve goals that I just don't need to achieve. Time for a change. I'm going to teach ESL oversees, which will allow me to pursue my dreams of studying languages while being immersed.  

So priorities have shifted a little. The crash was a setback to my studies, but not too bad. My immediate goal is still to get good enough at Mandarin to enjoy my friend's wedding in August. What has changed is the amount of time I'll devote to Mandarin after that trip. Things will be a little hectic for a while. So I want to crank it up a notch before the trip, get to a higher level, which will make it easier to recall later.  

Phase 1 of my new plan: I actually did the math, and realized that I won't finish Pimsleur in time doing 1 lesson every 3 days. So I'll reduce it to 2 days. I'll finish around the end of July at that pace. It shouldn't be a big deal, because I'm consistently 80%+ after 2 lessons these days.  

Phase 2 of my new plan: I need to get a tutor to get comfortable speaking the language, and learn a lot of new vocabulary. It will be very painful at first, due to my knowing only 350 words or so, but I have to go through this sometime. Better sooner than later.